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High Anxiety Levels

 

I think I need anxiety pills.  I find myself constantly worrying about everything that I have to do.  Like today after class I started freaking out because I kept a running list in my head of all the things I need to do.  What I’m not doing is realizing that most of that list can be accomplished in just a couple of hours, instead I freak out and think it’s going to take the rest of the day.  So instead of sitting down for a nice relaxing lunch with my roommates, I ate freakishly fast (which I do normally since I don’t really chew my food).  I didn’t sit and talk like I usually do; when I finished I got up and ran back to my room as fast as I could.  I then started on my work and realized two hours later I was finished.  Why do I do this?

The same happens when I think about getting a job next year.  Rather than thinking rationally and thoroughly, I panic; yet before I know it I did everything I wanted to.  I filled out applications, sent in resumes, and made calls, etc.  Even in my head I know how unrational I’m being, it’s like I can’t help myself.  I can’t help getting stressed and overwhelmed, which often brings me to tears.  I need to figure something out, because this stress can’t be good.  Although now that I’m thinking about it, I bet it raises my normally low blood pressure to an average level.  At least I’d stop feeling cold all the time.  Screw pills, maybe this is secretly good for me.

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February 12, 2008 at 3:57 pm 2 comments

Dead Ends

 

Today was my last first day of school.  When I finished high school I was so happy to get out of there and move on.  But now in college, I can’t say I’m happy to leave or want to stay…I just know it’s time to move on.  After being in the same place for four years, nothing really suprises me.  I know what to expect on campus and have an extreme comfort zone.  I guess you could say I’m famous for my comfort zone.  I love living in my own little world where nothing bothers me, which is why I rarely leave it.  Yet at the same time I think it’s finally time to grow up. 

Although I’m at school I’m still just a short car ride away from my parents.  That’s not to say I want to pack up my things and move to the Middle East, because let’s face it my arabic isn’t good enough.  All I know is how to say is things like bathroom, different foods, and swears….don’t think that would get me too far.  But I would not want to move to an area that I didn’t know anyone.  I would love to move with a friend or a cousin, because I need some stability if everything else is changing.  Even with all of this about to change, that part gives me very little stress ( just the other day I took my blood pressure, and it was so low, everyone around me was wondering why I was still breathing).  The part that stress me out the most is finding a job. 

I feel like I’m not qualified to do much of anything. All of the jobs I’ve read about require at least a year of experience, and just out of college, I don’t have that.  I’m not even sure what industry I want to go into.  I’ve thought about fashion, magazines, retailers, and hospitality, but they all lead to dead ends.  Any suggestions?

January 16, 2008 at 6:01 am 2 comments

All I Want To Do Is Have Some Fun

 

Well I’m back from Virgina, the job wasn’t good, but I got to spend a few days with my brother which was great.  I tend to worry a lot about my future, and he helped me put it all in perspective. 

I worry most about my finances, because the last thing I would want to be is poor.  But let me be serious, that would never happen.  I always will have family.  My parents will hopefully be around for a while, and if not there’s always my brother.  I know when he says I can turn to him he’s telling me the truth. 

I really admire him, because he’s so adventureous.  Just the other day he was talking about quitting his job, to travel the world.  He knows he doesn’t need his job, and really wants to experience life, and not waste his young days in an office.  For whatever reason, I didn’t get that gene.  The best advice he gave me on my trip, was to have fun and do something that I would enjoy.  There’s no rush to have a career, because that will come in time.

January 9, 2008 at 2:27 am Leave a comment

Time To Fly South?

After my mini meltdown over growing up and finding a job, I applied to several companies.  I heard back from a marketing firm, which was great news, because for some reason, I always think that no one would want to hire me.  But the thing that makes this different is that the company is in Virgina.  I’ve always wanted to move south, and if I lived there I would be close to my brother and sister.  The problem is that if the first interview goes well, the next interview will be the following day.  I wish I had more time,  because once the semester starts I seem to have no time for something like this.  I’m going to talk it over with my parents and try to figure something out.  Wish me luck!

January 4, 2008 at 3:20 am Leave a comment

Do You Feel The Pressure?

 

Lately I’ve been feeling the pressure to look for jobs.  Today I couldn’t take it anymore, and essentially broke down.  In the end, I think I know I’ll be fine, but the immediate future looks pretty bleak.  I have absolutely no idea what industry I want to go into, never mind the actual job.  There’s things that I enjoy, such as cooking and fashion, and then there are things that would allow me to have more options for enjoying my life, such as a job in the financial sector.  But then there’s also the question if I should move.  I’ve seriously considered moving down south to be close to my parents and other relatives.  Although I would be close to them, I wouldn’t have a base of friends like I do now.  I feel totally unprepared for the world ahead.  College was suppose to open doors, but I really feel more isolated.  I don’t see how my degree in business management has prepped me for the business world.  I feel like I haven’t been properly trained and have no real knowledge to bring to the table.  Is this how all college graduates feel?  If I just knew where I want to be, or what I’ll be doing next year at this time, I would be able to plan much better.  All I can do is move forward and hope for the best at this point.

December 29, 2007 at 6:48 am Leave a comment


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